xx Meraki Muse
솔 로라는 타이틀이 지겹다.. 행복한 커플들
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히 ㄹ끔힐끔 부러운 눈빛으로 바라보는 나..
Welcome to my channel! My channel name is Meraki Muse, but you can just call me SARA!
Q: What does Meraki Muse mean?
A: MERAKI is a Greek word that means to do something with soul, creativity, passion, etc. I chose this verb because it personifies what I’m trying to achieve as a youtuber; to inspire people by doing what I love: sharing my beauty and fashion tips with the youtube community! A MUSE is a source of inspiration.
Q: What kind of videos will you post on your channel?
A: Mostly hauls, makeup/skincare tips, lifestyle vlogs, fashion related videos, etc !
Why am I so emotional nowadays. Trivial things have a big impact on me. Sad songs make me cry, happy movies make me cry, good food makes me cry…*sobs*
Team B’s Chuseok Message Cr:Daum fancafe
Donghyuk’s, Junhwae’s, Bobby’s, Jinhwan’s, B.I’s, Yunhyeong’s
Im so impressed with their penmanship and art skills *__*b
…and then there’s Bobby’s ㅡ ㅡ; cracked up for a good 5 min at his sloppy writing.. gotta love that kid ♥♥♥
But I dont fit in. Not here. Theres no one like me. I wish I went to a highschool with people who were like me. With the same goals, morals, dreams, aspirations, etc. etc. etc. Who thought like me, spoke like me, understood me.
I feel like I never really experienced highschool…or at least the way I wanted to.
it feels like I didn’t even go to KCON this year. Usually around this time (a couple of days after the event) I get major post-concert depression and withdrawal symptoms….but this year I don’t even remember (or care to remember) anything. It’s funny how the one year I actually spend money to go to a concert (I’ve never spent $80 on concert tickets before so it was a huge rip off for me) I didn’t enjoy it LOL.
I kind of /expected/ it to be worse than last year but… I didn’t expect it to be this /this/ bad HAHHA. The convention itself was kinda lame because I didn’t even get to see a single k-pop artist x__x I get that they made it more fair this year by using random vouchers to determine whether you get into an artist session/red carpet/etc ..but it was lame how everyone’s chances of getting to see their favorite idol was based off of …LUCK. Like, really? I feel like KCON should come up with a more organized system when it comes to artist interaction sessions..like have it pre-determined before the concert so that no one has to stand around with stupid signs saying that they’ll trade or buy artist viewing vouchers LUL
If I had known that I would have NO chance of meeting EXO (or any group for that matter) I would have copped up the money and bought vip1 tickets. My seat wasn’t that bad but I seriously couldn’t even see the artist’s faces LOL they just looked like giant bugs…my feels were all over the place just to be in the same venue as them and hear them perform…but I was shocked when I saw fancams/pictures from people who were at vip1 …i missed out on so much! T___T there was so much fan interactions and they were…..SO CLOSE *___*
Next year….(if exo comes) I’m going to be a volunteer and just get VIP tickets for FREE ….b/c honestly, all of my friends who volunteered got so much idol interaction (helping them backstage and at the panels) AND they got vip tickets for f r e e …….i’m so regretful right now…it’s not even funny. TT__TT Til next year? I guess……. *sigh*
She asked for an escape, her wish was not granted.
She wandered hopelessly begging God to give her the attention she desperately needed.
She pleaded for love.
She pleaded for her own selfish desires because nothing else could grant her happiness. The happiness she felt when she was loved. To love and to be loved was all she ever wanted.
She was fickle.
She wanted someone to care. Care about her wellbeing, care about her whereabouts, care about her. But at the same time she didn’t want them to care. She wanted to live a carefree life with people who didn’t give two hoots about what society deemed appropriate, what society demanded, what society wanted.
She wished someone would notice. Notice that she was gone, notice that she was withdrawn, notice simple things about her like the fact that she enjoyed the sea mist in her hair and how she twirled her fingers when she was nervous. But at the same time she didn’t want anyone to notice. Notice how much she was hurting inside, notice how one eye would twitch when she was faking a smile, notice the tears in her eyes when she excused herself to the restroom for the third time that evening.
She thought someone would realize. Realize that she wasn’t like the the rest, realize that she couldn’t fit in, realize that she didn’t want to. But at the same time she didn’t want to realize. She didn’t want to realize that she was slowly decaying; she was losing her spirit. The candle within her soul was burning out. She lost hope. She lost direction. She was spiraling out of control. She would end up on the newspaper like the girl who had flung herself into the river, and be forgotten in the same way once the headlines grew cold and the papers yellowed. She didn’t want to be that girl. She didn’t want to leave the earth, she wanted to enter it.
She lay in the open grass, surrendering herself to mother nature. She flung her arms out and rested her head on a bed of daisies. The birds chirped joyously and the bees welcomed her. There was neither a cloud nor an airplane in the sky. The breeze tickled her toes and she let out a grin. The sky was endless. She blinked slowly as she drifted off. Deeper. A single tear dropped and traced her cheeks as she looked over the horizon. She bid the world she came from one last goodbye.
I was navigating through a crowd of unfamiliar faces. I desperately looked for an escape. Amongst the scores of people I felt so alone. As I began to panic someone grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him. It was you.
The lights dimmed. Our eyes met and I was locked in a trance. I felt my face flush rose red. I was embarrassed. I wanted to break away but I had nowhere to run. For once I felt warm inside. Safe. Your eyes twinkled when you spoke to me. I wasnt listening. I think you noticed. I felt you slowly reading my eyes and I quickly glanced away because I didnt want you to uncover what was inside. I wasnt ready. Not yet.
I didnt want you to read my mind but my heart slowly gave in to your captivating stare and warm whisper. Your words were music to my ears. You spoke with a melody and moved with a beat. Before I had a chance to stop myself I was enchanted by you.
I broke away abruptly. It was sudden and you were startled. Im sorry. I was afraid. Afraid to give you all of me, or even a part of me. I walked away briskly, unable to forget the expression you had on your face. It was my choice to walk away without a proper explanation or excuse, yet i felt anger towards you for not coming after me. I wish you had stopped me twice.
Sometimes when im in a crowd full of unfamiliar faces I unintentionally find myself looking for you. When im lost and alone I remember how warm it felt when you found me. Now I pay the price for hurting you.
If I must lose myself so you can find me, consider me lost.
Buy me the repackaged album and the pop art shirt of exo-k. Oh, and the wolf cape while youre at it !!!!!! ~___~ #joonmoney
while Suho is working out, Kai takes the opportunity to cuddle ♥